PORSHA Williams admits she thought about killing herself as a child after being bullied by a classmate.

The Real Housewives of Atlanta star her suicidal thoughts date back to middle school, when a fellow student bullied her about her body.

Getty Images - GettyPorsha Williams has written a memoir of her life '/caption '

porsha4real/InstagramIn her new book, Porsha reveals she thought about killing herself as a child '/caption '

Porsha, 40, reveals her thoughts of suicide, how she survived several abusive relationships, and her lifelong struggle with depression, in her new memoir The Pursuit of Porsha, available November 30.

In an interview with PEOPLE ahead of the book, the reality star admitted at the time: ...I was too young to even understand what I was dealing with.

...It wasn't until I was about 29 that I really identified with the word ...depression.'...

Her mother sent her to therapy, but she only went to a few sessions.

...I developed different skills to survive,... she says. ...Like speaking positively to myself and not focusing in on all of the negative....

Porsha, who is mom to 2-year-old daughter Pilar Jhena with ex Dennis McKinley, confessed she took a break from therapy while writing her book, but plans to resume regular sessions soon.

                                        Most read in The US Sun





















            DEATH PENALTY PLEA          

            Death row inmate's sister denied meeting governor ahead of execution            



















            IN DESPERATE NEED           

            ‘Secret stimulus check’ sent out as calls grow for more mortgage relief         



















            STORE SHOOTING          

            Rapper, 36, shot and killed as fans pay tribute to 'King of Memphis' star           























            MARKED CARD         

            Palace 'will dread Meghan's surprise interview with Ellen as she's RUTHLESS'            























            CREEPY CRAWLERS         

            Plague of 50million CANNIBAL CRABS swarm roads on way to breeding ground            



















            CHECK IT OUT            

            Surprise stimulus checks of $2,000 & $1,000 are being sent out          

But she adds just writing her life experiences down was its own form of therapy: ...It was hard as hell. I wanted to talk about those moments of despair, how I came out of them, and what it took to get there.

Everything I have been through has made me the woman I am today.... 

R KELLY CLAIMS

Porsha dropped another bombshell from her book when she claimed that she was ...abused... by R Kelly, and said it is now her ...opportunity... to speak out,... claiming that after meeting through a friend the aspiring musician was flown to Chicago to meet the rap star for a potential work opportunity.

The then-25-year-old says she was taken to the singer's home instead of a recording studio, which was the inital destination she was told.

Upon arrival, she claims she was left alone in a room for hours before R Kelly joined her and prompted her to take off her clothes.

...I've already put myself in this position. This is what you're supposed to do. You have to. There is no turning back,... she recited in the memoir.

Porsha described two additional meetings with the Grammy-award winner where she says she discovered other young women in his home, and one instance when she claims she heard a woman being beaten in the next room.

The Real Housewives star decided not to return to the Ignition singer's home thereafter and has kept the encounter a secret ever since.

SAYING GOODBYE

In September, Porsha announced that she was leaving the Real Housewives of Atlanta franchise.

She shared via Instagram: ...After ten life-changing, gratifying, incredible years, it is finally time to begin my next chapter. Next season, I will not be returning to the Real Housewives of Atlanta franchise. 

...This was a difficult decision to not only make, but also come to terms with. It's one I have put a lot of thought into and because of that, I know it's the right one....

Porsha went on to thank Bravo and show producers as well as her supporters.

...You’ve made the past decade a truly special one. One where I've dealt with unbelievable highs and unbelievable lows, and I can honestly say I would not have made it through some of them without the unconditional love and support I have gotten from all of you....

BRIDE TO BE

Next up for the now-former housewife: marrying fiancé Simon Guobadia. 

Simon split from Porsha's co-star Falynn back in April. Just a month later, he announced his engagement to Porsha, whom had previously been invited into the couple's home and was believed to be a close friend.

Porsha posted a loved-up photo of the pair on Instagram, while she insisted she had nothing to do with his divorce from Falynn in the caption.

The mom-of-one said: ...Our relationship began a month ago - yes we are crazy in love. I know it’s fast but we are living life each day to its fullest.

...I choose happiness every morning and every night. Tuning out all negative energy and only focused on positive wishes. He makes me so happy and to me, that is what matters most.

AFP or licensorsPorsha also claims singer R Kelly abused her when she was 25. '/caption '

Social Media - Refer to SourcePorsha is engaged to Simon Guobadia '/caption '

GettyAfter 10 years, Porsha announced that she is leaving RHOA 4 '/caption '

If you or someone you know is affected by any of the issues raised in this story, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-TALK (8255) or text Crisis Text Line at 741741.

        We pay for your stories!




                Do you have a story for The US Sun team?                

Email us at exclusive@the-sun.com or call 212 416 4552. Like us on Facebook at www.facebook.com/TheSunUS and follow us from our main Twitter account at @TheSunUS


SHARE